i wish people would understand that if you consider me as a friend you have to really spell it out because i will not believe it until you tell me and i will always feel like i am bothering you whenever i talk to you and i won’t hug you when we say goodbye because i’m too awkward and i have no way to tell if we are at the hugging stage yet.
we can exchange numbers, but you will probably have to ask first or we wait until it is a really crucial moment when i have a legitimate need to contact you outside of the perimeters of friendship, and if you haven’t established that we are friends you will have to text me first because i don’t really know how to start a meaningful text conversation - like how do you start a conversation without the whole “hello how are you” thing, which generally doesn’t go anywhere anyway. also if you’re going to have a conversation with me via text/internet, then you have to follow the conversation rules of person a says something, then person b says something because if i say something and then you don’t, that indicates to me that i am boring and you don’t like me so then i spend the next ten minutes panicking trying to come up with a new conversation topic.
i will wildly vary the amount of x’s i send in texts because i don’t know what is appropriate and i normally send 3 to people but people place so much weight on how many x’s people send so sometimes i just do one because i don’t want to seem overly keen even though 3 is the amount that i normally send.
if you invite people to something while we are out in a group you will have to say it again to me personally because i will not believe that the invitation was for me. if i don’t get invited to something, don’t tell me to come anyway because the person won’t mind. i mind. i can’t go somewhere if i’m not wanted there.